Before i saw you,
I was just there.
I didnt really have any purpose,
For existence.
I was kinda shy,
And I didn't care.
But,
When I saw you,
I knew I had something,
To live for.
You brought me out of my shell,
And into the light.
You were my dream.
Then
One day you decided to try something
That you have never tried before
And it hurt me.
I ignored it
Thinkin that it was a mistake
But,
I was wrong.
You kept doing it
You kept hurting me
I finally broke away
But what you did
Never leaves
It haunts my dreams and my reality
i wish you were still here
but i know i'm better off
Why am I stuck inside this game,
Where I have to just play the part?
I'm left here with all my shame
And all the pieces of my broken heart
I love you, can't you see it?
You know I'd do anything for you
And now I have to put up with this crap
And think about what I could have, is all I do
I love you so much I just want you to know
That if you really don't want me
I'll try and let you go
I know I could never make you see
How much, to me you truly mean
I'm sitting here waiting
For this end I have seen
So a dream world, I'm creating
I wish you were only mine
I don't want to share you with anybody
If you really don't want me, fi
I'm just a fly on the wall,
Nobody can see me,
I'm just invisible
And nobody knows
How I really feel inside,
This mask that I have
Will never be taken down,
Cause everytime I've taken it down
I only get hurt by someone
That I thought i could trust,
Then again I should know better,
I cant trust anyone,
Everyone stabs me in the back
Nobody cares for me,
I'm just invisible,
To everyone around me,
I wish only to have someone care
I wish only to have someone dare,
To tell me that I'm worth something,
I'm just a worthless soul
and i already know
The end of my story,
I'll die alone, I'll die in pain
I'm sorry I came into you
Here I am, standing waiting,
Wanting you to notice me,
Then you did, and I was in heaven,
But now I finally see,
Dont tell me you care,
Its more then I can bear,
Yo never loved me, just used me,
You never needed me though you said you did,
I was foolish, I was stupid, I didnt see,
I was acting like a kid,
Here you said you loved me
You only wanted to be with me,
And the next day your with another girl,
Then I talk to you that night
And you tell me 'it doesnt matter'
'I only want to be with you'
Liar
Stop telling me you still came
Its more then I can bear
I dont care what you have to say anymore,
Everything you have said h
Here I am, standing waiting,
Wanting you to notice me,
Then you did, and I was in heaven,
But now I finally see,
Dont tell me you care,
Its more then I can bear,
Yo never loved me, just used me,
You never needed me though you said you did,
I was foolish, I was stupid, I didnt see,
I was acting like a kid,
Here you said you loved me
You only wanted to be with me,
And the next day your with another girl,
Then I talk to you that night
And you tell me 'it doesnt matter'
'I only want to be with you'
Liar
Stop telling me you still came
Its more then I can bear
A song is a wish form the heart,
Yet lately I'm playing the part.
You were always my song, my friend,
And now I feel my time is end.
But I don't want to go and leave,
I know all you do is deceive.
Your love is like a flame inside,
I really don't want to subside.
I lay here and can't got to sleep,
Because with you I was in to deep.
When yo said you wanted to go,
And all that I wanted to know,
Is Why you told me of such things,
But your reason is wavering.
Now because of you I cant trust,
And all my feelings turned to dust.
Now your gone, there is no one here,
And now I walk alone in fear.
Your love is like a memory past,
Bu
When your having a hard day,
And you want it all to end.
When you feel nothing goes your way,
And you just want to give in.
Let me be the one you call,
I'll do the best i can,
I promise I wont let you fall,
If you'll just open up to me.
When a loyal friend is hard to find,
And you feel like your all alone.
Don't let life make you blind,
I'll always be here for you.
I'll lift you up into the night,
You can always count on me.
I'll try with all my might,
To make you as happy as can be.
You were always there for me,
Then you pushed me away.
Now all I can possibly see,
Is darkness day after day.
I've lost all of my will,
I feel I can't go on,
It's like time is standing still,
And my whole life is gone.
I'm gone, try and stop me now.
I'm forgetting all these wasted years,
Loving you when you could never love me back,
As I forget all of these tears.
You could never love me,
My loving you was in vain.
And I've come to realize
Love isnt worth all the pain.
What did I do,
To deserve this awful life?
What did I do,
To feel this way inside?
As the blood flows from my cuts,
Like rain falls from the sky.
I feel that my life,
Is like a prison,
That I can never escape.
Death,
For half of the world,
This word brings fear.
For the other half,
This word brings hope.
As people kill themselves,
Looking for an answer,
To this awful, miserable life.
While others go on,
Contiuning to live their life,
Relying on their friends.
Hoping that they'll be there for them,
To help them when they need it,
And always trusting their friends,
To keep all of their secrets.
So life could be a little bit eaiser.
Have you ever felt,
That life couldn't get worse?
Then something happened,
That you never thought would.
And your life went further downhill?
Have you been able,
To keep your emotions under control,
Then to much happened to fast,
And your ready to give up on everything,
But you hold on no matter what.
Cause you know your friends are there for you.
But you wont show your true emotions to anybody.
And you know that you just want to be alone.
All you want is to stay in your room,
So you can live the rest of life alone.
So you don't end up hurting someone you love.
My life is going out of control,
I need to find something to hold to.
If I do, I'll continue to live.
I'll live until I have nothing left in me.
But if I don't find something to hold to,
I'll just keep slipping,
Further and further down,
Until I'm finally gone forever,
All that would remain would be,
My blood, body and my black heart.
I'm ready to just give in,
And take my life now,
But I continue to hold on.
I've learned that death isn't the answer,
It just causes those I love and care about,
To go through more then they need to,
And I couldn't that to my friends.
I am a daughter of the moon,
I am an angel of the night.
Darkness is my whole life.
In the dark,
My heart is left to suffer,
The pains that your eyes cannot see.
Pain that nobody's eyes will ever see.
All of my screams,
That I scream inside.
Your ears haven't heard,
Screams of pain nobody will hear.
As I cry myself to sleep,
Night after Night.
In complete darkness,
I scream and cry.
In complete darkness only,
So nobody can see or hear me.
Cause I am a daughter of the moon,
An angel of the night.
Everybody says that home,
Is where you can go,
To feel peace and be yourself.
My "home" isn't like that.
Everybody yells, fights, and lies.
Everybody ignores me,
Nobody notices I'm there.
As i sit im my room,
Music on, lights out,
Making my room as dard as possible,
Cause in the dark,
I'm not afraid to cry.
In the dark,
Is how I want to die.
The darkness is my true home.
Everybody sees me and thinks,
That I live a perfect life.
They all think I'm happy.
Yet nobody can care or see,
How depressing my life can truly be.
I sit in my dark room day after day,
Suffering in silence.
No one ever really sees
The true side of me.
The dark depressed being
That I truly am.
I sit in my dark room,
Suffering in silence
As tears run down my face,
Making me drown in all my emotions.
As I sit here,
Suffering in silence
As I sit here all alone,
With tears of silence,
Streaming down my face.
Thinking about how much I love you,
Yet, somehow, knowing,
I'll never be able to have you.
And that alone,
Sends tears of silence,
To my eyes.
Tears nobody will ever see,
Tears nobody will even care about.
As I sit here in a corner,
Thinking of everything you said to me,
And how I just can't let you go.
You broke my heart and sent,
These tears of silence,
Streaming down my face.
You may never know,
How much you hurt me.
As the days come and go,
I just wanna break free.
You've left me here alone,
With all my unheard screams.
As these tears of blood flow,
With all my broken dreams.
You've left me here to cry,
In a world of regreat and hate.
As I think of your lies,
I sit here and wait.
For something to go right.
Because i needed you,
To help me win this fight,
But you left me here anyway.
How do you get so lonely,
That nobody knows?
So lonely that one day,
You believe live comes and goes.
Life happens so quickly,
It just passes right by,
And soon you realize,
So what if i die.
May as well end my life now,
Nobody cares, nobody's there.
You feel that life i pointless,
You become completely ensnared.
The door has been shut,
The world has locked you out,
And all you wat to do is cut.
How do you get that lonely?
So lonely that you belive no life,
Is better then the life you have.
It was a kiss that burst a thousand stars
A touch that ignited a thousand flames
A look as deep as a thousand oceans
And a smile that broke a thousand hearts
But the tears in your eyes could sink a thousand ships
The thoughts in my head could fill a thousand rooms
The ache in my heart could kill a thousand armys
The pain in my stomach was like a thousand wounds.
Because in that moment,
We broke a thousand rules.
And in that moment,
We said a thousand words
Current Residence: My boyfriends drom room Favourite genre of music: just about anything Favourite photographer: tonz Favourite style of art: emotional portraits Operating System: windows xp MP3 player of choice: mine Personal Quote: Men are like bank accounts.
Favourite Visual Artist
tonz
Favourite Movies
any scary movie
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
er...to many to say
Favourite Writers
tonz
Tools of the Trade
pencil and my notebook
Other Interests
hanging out with my boyfriend, oh and music, of course
OMG i'm getting engaged!!! i thought this day would never come i'm so excited. my boyfriend is the sweetest in the whole world and he gives the best back massages, i love him so much, and he has a motorcycle! I never thought life could be this great
ok...so i finally got my senior pictures back...i love them i think they are the first pic of me that i actually like its amazing...and i cant believe its finally my last year of skewl i cant wait to get out of this place...and our school halloween dance is coming in oct. and my friend made me ask the guy i like so now i get to go to the dance with him...im so excited........
ok so i got this friend, or who i thought was a friend, and i found out that they have been lieing to me. they dont kno i kno though....should i tell them i kno or should i just keep playin stupid??? i donno what i should do...any suggestions plz